Dance Ontario was today, it went well. I was upset with the first reaction I got. You know, it shouldn't matter, I had a lot of fun and I should be very happy. I guess I'm a little out of sorts today.
There really is no need for the Portuguese people to be stomping around and 12:30 in the morning. I hate this house, no I don't but it's not the same. I talked to Emma about the big room, looks like it's a no go she said she'd think about it. And you know what, that's fine. Either way it goes someone is going to be bitter. I just hope it's all OK, everything felt like it was crumbling with Emma today. I was very irritable towards her. I guilt her so much for never being home. I can't help it. I'm going to stop it's none of my business and I don't blame her. I'd do the same, who wants to sit around in a cold house with no TV when you have a boyfriend? Fuck, I would see Scott every second. I'm sorry Emma, I don't mean to be so cold sometimes. I'm jealous but my time will come soon.
My stomach has been twisted and on fire all week.
Laura said my show was too far, Scott didn't call to say good luck and Emma forgot what time it was at. Then I sat at home and moped all evening long basically. I'm so ashamed when I act this way. But Steph came, she didn't like it and Meg, Christie and Jenny too, which was awesome of them.
I'm going to wake up not feeling like this tomorrow morning.
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